Peek-a-mew!

To the love of my life, may this post brighten your day. 

<3 

It's not always about me.

It's not always about me. 

But dear, how I wish it were. 

Whoever said I'm a little lost soul

Would be good as damned. 

Some people accomplish more when they're unattached. 

Staying focused, disciplined, these are two things I lack severely. 

I get distracted easily, a fault I happen to find endearing. 

And since I cannot, for the life of me, stay focused. I would have to limit my distractions.

That way, I can get more shit done. 

My strongest qualities include cutting people off, no regrets, no crying over severed bonds.

Along with Resilience, Perseverance, Will. I'm going to get there.

Sharing this super cute photo for others who are keeping themselves motivated. Hang on, lovelies.

"Centuries"

"Centuries"

[Intro:]

Du du du du-du du du

Du du du du du-du du du

[Chorus:]

Some legends are told

Some turn to dust or to gold

But you will remember me

Remember me for centuries

And just one mistake

Is all it will take

We'll go down in history

Remember me for centuries

Hey, hey, hey

Remember me for centuries

Mummified my teenage dreams

No, it's nothing wrong with me

The kids are all wrong

The story's all off

Heavy metal broke my heart

Come on, come on and let me in

The bruises on your thighs like my fingerprints

And this is supposed to match

The darkness that you felt

I never meant for you to fix yourself

[Chorus]

And I can't stop 'til the whole world knows my name

'Cause I was only born inside my dreams

Until you die for me, as long as there's a light, my shadow's over you

'Cause I, I am the opposite of amnesia

And you're a cherry blossom

You're about to bloom

You look so pretty, but you're gone so soon

[Chorus]

[Bridge:]

We've been here forever

And here's the frozen proof

I could scream forever

We are the poisoned youth

[Chorus]

We'll go down in history

Remember me for centuries  

This sick song from FOB is what keeps me focused (as fuck). 

Change starts now. 

"I'm Good"

"I'm Good"

I’m good, I’m good, I’m good, I’m good
Living life just like I should
Wouldn’t change it if I could
I’m good, I’m good, I’m good

Trying to figure out who I am
Or who I’m supposed to be
Feel good about where I stand
So I can make the most of me-I’m
Coming back down from space
A million miles away
There’s a lot of love in this place
(Oh) And I’m just trying to say

I’m good, I’m good, I’m good, I’m good
Living life just like I should
Wouldn’t change it if I could
I’m good, I’m good, I’m good
[x2]

It’s been a long time living this way
Worrying what people say
Feeling like I won’t fit in
But I won’t give up, no I won’t give in
We’re looking for something more
What you’re really looking for
It’s been with you since you were born
Since you were born

I’m good, I’m good, I’m good, I’m good
Living life just like I should
Wouldn’t change it if I could
I’m good, I’m good, I’m good
[x2]

You only live once
I’m good with myself
I’m there for my friends
Til the very end
You only live once
I’m good with myself
I’m there for my friends
Til the very end

I wanna see another love revolution
Find a way to be a better person
If we come together like we should
We could all be good

I’m good, I’m good, I’m good, I’m good
Living life just like I should
Wouldn’t change it if I could
I’m good, I’m good, I’m good
[x2]

Haha! Updating my feel good playlist, got any to share? 

Uploading a few photos to update my bloggy.

My boy bought me a new phone then thanked me for loving him.

Seriously, who does that?!!! 

HAHAH my blog entry sounds like a Panic! at the Disco song, lololol!

I miss P!ATD :(

But it is true! Christmas came in early and yey I'm so happy, he got me the one I've always wanted!!!!

Look at him pretending to be all kakkoi and stuff, hahah but he is like, super hot here *eyeroll* kasi he has my phone, right there!

So here it is <3 LG G3, retiring my 3 year old LG PRADA 3, at long last!

I've read sooo many good reviews about this phone so I can't wait to get my paws all over it.  

 

Just look at how crisp the front camera turned out to be, it's so perfect <3

No Filters, y'all! Any gals here using the same unit? :3 

Ooooh I have to buy this baby some pink stuff, Thank You oh so much, love! <3 

Doggburner <3 <3 <3 

It's okay to be corny!

I am terrible!

But he adores me <3

I win :3

Love Mew~!

Thank you for surprise picking me at the office :3

Coffee, Tea or Endoscopy?

Hi! I have been complaining of stomach pain for the longest time, I am a coffee drinker so I thought it's the tummy acids acting up, I thought it was something normal err manageable..  I knew I had gastritis but Doc said it'd be best to do endoscopy so they can give me proper medications.

My boyfriend accompanied me to the Doc's and they had to put me to sleep using Propofol, which is the closest thing I'd get to getting high using illegal drugs, so that was a weird *but cool* first time experience for me. Yay, I feel such a trooper, it was the same medication that killed Michael Jaskson, the nurse said. The above photo was taken by me after I woke up from the drugs, so funny! 

And ohai my heart beats for you! 

 I had been fasting for 8 bloody hours so you can just imagine how ravenous I was afterwards.

I ordered The Good Fella Meatballs Pasta at Gotti's, to-go. It was so darn good, I want to cry. It's the sour tomato type of pasta, not really fitting for Pinoy Taste but that's how I like my pasta. 

And I also had this mediocre tasting dish from Sizzling Pepper Steak, shame because the crew was really nice and accommodating, ambiance was good, too. But Iono, nothing special about this dish, We also ordered tenderloin steak but it was too small, their portions are terrible, I'd shame them with a photo but I'd rather not. Like I said, they have good people working for them. Sayang.

We were both dead tired, and full, and sleepy and we've a long drive home so we had to do this take out. I feel really silly for secretly collecting Starbucks stickers for the 2015 planner, I feel like I'm conforming to either the massive consumer rave VS Starbucks' annual holiday marketing strategy, Lel! I am a planner girl, I will not think twice about investing on a good planner, and I know which layout works for me, this planner from Starbucks looks like gold so hopefully I can get me all stickers before deadline :) 

Til Next Post!

P.S. I am well and healthy <3 

Happy Neko Gals - 11/6/2014

 Met up with Senpai Paola aka XOUSHII last Thursday! 

We met back in 2012, we used to work together saving the world and stuff, that's why I call her Sempaii or Sempao

She suggested this new place in Eastwood, Potts Point Cafe, it's an Aussie joint, I really liked it there. It's not zen or anything, they have this vegan, organic, hippie, vintage thing going on as far as their interiors and displays are concerned, it's like those concept rooms on Pinterest.

We weren't really hungry, we were just looking for a nice place to stay, but since we already here we oughta try something. Being the tea cat person that she is, Sampao ordered English Breakfast Tea, while I had..Geesh, I dunno what I had, it's a nut shake, wait Imma look it up.. 

Sempai collects vintage and imported liquor, so this shot was mandatory.

We ordered Smoked salmon and spinach eggs Benedict, soft salmon and flavorful toppings so much joy. The Breakfast Smoothie I was telling you gals earlier, was totally yum and my heart is craving for it badly.  

We talked about cats, books, and pretty much our lives in general and where this and that would lead to. I really had fun with Sempai, a day worth of chit chat is not enough when you're talking n hanging out with the right person ^_^

Belated Happy Birthday, Neko Sempao! :3 

Til next post, Loves <3 <3 <3

Can't Get Enough of Matcha! - 11/7/14

 I discovered this awesome Matcha place last Friday along Pioneer Center in Pasig 8D

Kissako Uji Matcha Cafe, they've coffee and plenty of Matcha food things for us to enjoy.

The place itself is very relaxing, not too much people when we got there, too. 

I ordered this amazing and delicious Matcha Iced Tea Latte, It is almost as good as Starbucks but presentation is pretty so Kissako wins my heart. 

  

Sine it's a cafe, they've no food, they've only cookies, and shortcakes and ice cream among other coffee snack things. The pretty manager said we can bring in food from other stores, instead.. so that we did. 

My craving for beef tapa has been satiated, haha! But I do hope they would have some hungry person food in their menu pretty soon, they've a neighboring Japanese resto, Takashi, I think, I've to try that out next time, hihih.  

Me looking pagoda (too pagod to look ganda) , too tired cause I've just gotten off of graveyard,  and no amount of beautification apps can make me look pretty haha, sorry not sorry, suffer dear reader, suffer! 

Shame, could have ordered a cake but was too full for it, I will come back next week with a friend, so hopefully I can blog a better entry about this cafe, My boyfie also bought me this nail polish from Etude, it's the perfect shade of Aquamarine and I love it! I've had polishes in weird shades of Teal and this is a good breather from all the blue hues I've been wearing. 

If you want to know more about this cafe, I found a nice blog entry. 

HAPPY LAB

Sweet November

MewMew <3 <3 <3 

I went to Makati just a little while ago to fetch my puppy boyfriend. 

I am clingy like that but he likes it *wow* so me guess it's okay lololol. 

Just had our first year anniversary last week so we got in to this small talk about our plans for next year, as a couple. It really made me want to look forward to all the years that have yet to come. *happycat*

We had our usual Green Tea Latte and Mocha Frapp, brownies care of our mutual friend, Jaja. 

Matcha is so darn good, makes me cry :( I'm not really picky when it comes to coffee, I personally prefer McDo's brewed coffee over everyone else's over priced cuppas here in PH. But Starbuck's Matcha blend is the best I've tasted so far... unless you have other recommendations, I'd really appreciate 'em. 

 Anyway, I took a photo of my profile, thought I looked like a guy. I think I'd make me a good looking guy. Hehe til next post. Aaaand... I am now without a PC, temporarily. But I think I can blog a little more often now that I've memories that I don't want to forget. (in case of an accidental amnesia) 

October Feeling

He asked me yesterday why I wasn't writing anymore.

He said he misses it. So here, I'll write about you. 

Because I've never been so incandescently happy now that I'm with you.

Our lazy days together are the ones I like best.

Flat on our backs, hands and legs intertwined, with the soft rays of the sun touching our skin.

I, much absorbed by whichever book I'm reading. And you, engrossed with that game you've been playing. And it'll be still, and silent, and comforting, and perfect. And you'd kiss me ever so often, ever so gently. And I would purr, and smile, and purr some more, and you'd laugh at me for reasons I cannot comprehend, then after a deep sign of utter bliss and contentment, we'd both be back in to our own graphic - pixilated ventures. 

And then a battle cry, I'd hear from you, and you'd pull me away, taking me by the waist. And you'd hug me, and shower me with sweet and soft kisses. I wouldn't have a clue as to what was going on, only that I'm rejoicing all of a sudden, because you're my victor!!! You've won your game as you've won my heart. And these moments are priceless and I couldn't be more gratified that you have chosen me to spend it with you. 

My only problem is that.. My dear, you never let me finish my book. 

Blissful Break

Hey there. I just got off from my doctor's appointment, 

I hath been served yet another 5 sessions of physical therapy.
 It made me feel uncertain about a lot of things. It's not that bad really, just back pains but it made me feel uncertain.  I have undergone the first 5 sessions for my back, I'm not complaining but I've been out of work

for almost two weeks, I am getting paid and I know I don't have any right to complain

but it just makes me unsure of whether or not I would still like to get back to work. 

Work has not been okay recently, not that it is hard. The work is fairly okay. not to mention my boss has been such a goody about my therapy, everyone has been really nice to me, so far. I am just at that age, where I want something I can really sink my teeth in to, and my current career disposition does not promise me that. I want something I can keep forever and this is not it. This current bliss of a break that I was given for this Myofascial Pain Syndrome only adds up to my list of reasons why I should quit. Anyway, enough of work.

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http://www.salon.com/2013/06/16/the_ocean_at_the_end_of_the_lane_neil_gaiman_returns/

I am finally done with the book I was reading; The Ocean at the End of The Lane, by the great Neil Gaiman. I fell in love with it and would have finished in one sitting but I was successful at limiting myself

so as to prolong the joy I get from reading, hehe! It starts off with a man who grew up with books and well, you should read it, There was this one particular quote which I like very much.

“Grown-ups don't look like grown-ups on the inside either. Outside, they're big and thoughtless and they always know what they're doing. Inside, they look just like they always have. Like they did when they were your age. Truth is, there aren't any grown-ups. Not one, in the whole wide world.” 

I grew up with books, too. My mum never allowed me to play outside as a child, I clearly remember my first two books were the illustrated ones of Snow White and Alice in Wonderland, I was four years old with Alice being my absolute favorite. I remember not being able to read back then, I was so worried I won't be able to read at all. I eventually learned how-to a year after,. My parents bought me all kinds of books from dinos to fairies. 

There was this one time, my parents bought me a giant Atlast/Dictionary for my 6th birthday.
It was a big and boring and blue, that's how it looked like to me. I wore a straight face for the rest of the day.This could have a been a big book of mythical creatures or witch incantations but no, it has  to be this heavy duty book with words I don't really encounter. I finally learned how to appreciate this boring book by 3rd grade when we were learning about the dictionary, I thought it must have all the words in the world written inside. Ah, what are these feels?

Ah, the boyfriend at work is not responding to my messages.
I could give him a piece of my mind or I can treat myself to a piece of cake.
I think Imma do both! Happy Weekend!

Thoughts on Passion; and the lack thereof.

Love many things, for therein lies the true strength, and whosoever loves much performs much, and can accomplish much, and what is done in love is done well.

-Vincent Van Gogh

I wonder how it feels like to be extremely passionate about something. 

I'm not talking about people who had their eyes set out to for just one ultimate goal.
Like those freaky super competitive types.  

I'm talking about people who just love what they do, and everything about what they do, and how they strive do it everyday. I am extremely envious of those people. 

Seems like I'm stuck at wanting to do so many things all at once to the point where I can't seem to actually start something. It's like, I have so many things I wanna do and all of 'em are at a certain level and none stronger than the other, to the point where I can't decide which one I should do first.
Oh God, I am wasting my days away. And all these because of that swimming anime, Free!

Cause Haru is just in for the water and nothing more, and I think it's beautiful *u*

Pretty Odd x Pretty Pink

Just how true is the statement above? 

Well, It's easy to be an absolute sweetheart. Sugar coating is fun! 

Be sweet, and friendly, smile a lot, be carefree, be playful and coy, whatev. 

If you don't know how to sugar coat, look around you, it's every where!

The giant world of media and commercialism already paved the way to fakeness; 

All you gotta do is  follow the trend.

Want people to like you? buy this, wear that, use this, listen to this kind of music, then act like that. It's fun, yeah but it has a draining feeling to it, like it'll suck up all your juices lol.  And sometimes I even ask myself, why do I even bother? Maybe because deep down I do have a Monica Geller complex

"I've got this uncontrollable need to please people!!" LOL!

(people I like)

And when I get all quiet, and lost, and more like myself..

It's so darn hard to explain why, and how there is no normal excuse for it, at all. 

I fear that people would start thinking there's something wrong, because it is a perfect start for a hot gossip. 

I've weirded myself out way too many times and the least I would want is an insult to injury

In my case, I am not a snob, nor am I upset, nor am I the type to hold grudges. 

But there are times when I  just want to drift, and float, and fade away even just for a bit, ya know? 

But for some cosmic luck, I have found souls who doesn't mind my presence.. and the lack thereof.

Which is why I love, love, love my friends so much, words cannot express my gratitude!

How they make me feel like it is okay to be MIA. 

And how much I am welcomed when I'm ready for some action. 

It's awkward explaining myself to other people, and this is just the tip of the iceberg..  

Under the MBTI pool, I have an ISFP personality, and we're dealing with just the "I" part of it, don't want to get started with the S, F and P LOL! 

Funny, the world teaches you how to be good, and how to conform to society in order to be accepted. 

 But no one ever teaches you how to be yourself. All they ever say is, Be yourself. 

Be yourself, it's cliche, it's annoying, it's too general.

 But you tell me, HOW? is this a nature - nurture thing? No one tells you what to do.

Self discovery is a continuous process and it goes on for the rest of your life. 

Just a tip though, try to understand yourself first, and your quirks, what makes you work.

When you've figured yourself out, even just a little, then that's the only time when you've to accept yourself. 

DO NOT accept yourself first without understanding why you have this certain oddity  because you will only hurt the ones you love, and you don't want that. 

So, enough with the untimely, unkawaii, rant! 

NOT DONE! Well here's what happened. 

I was inside the cubicle when I overheard some girls talking about me. 

I don't know them but I waited for the lot to exit before I made mine. 

And just my luck, when I got out of the wash room, there they are, still talking about me. 

With guys this time, their expressions were priceless of course, when they saw me and how I was there the whole time! But it was a weird feeling, iono. 

i can only hope they won't feel guilty cause I hate getting sympathy from people I don't give shit about. I rather they own up to what they said.. it wasn't entirely mean, I mean.. one of the girls thought I was Korean who speaks Korean at work and by Korean.. I think she must have heard me speaking Minion language, haha! 

So I walked away as casually as I can like, see all the fucks I give?!

But I wanted to tell someone about it, but it'll make me look like I care about what others think about me, which is LAME! Not that I do.. specially if the feedback is just from mindless faces in the crowd. But what happens if it gets to someone I like, ya know? or if it gets to people who've yet to know to me. I don't get myself attached nor do I allow myself to like people but when I do, oh gosh, that would only mean that I really like you! and it would suck major bonkers if I lose someone I like aka a favorite to a stupid rumor. 

This is why I stick to my buddies, people who knows and accepts me. 

It's like I have to be near someone I am close to in order for me to function err blend in okay. This is not something that's me all the time of course, I can manage on my own just that sometimes it gets bad and all I know is the person I'm closest to. It's just that I feel like I need to be within a trusted presence when I'm in a room full of people who I have to maintain good (professional) relationships with. I don't want to be picked out as the loner girl, or antisocial, I mean I'm making a conscious effort and I want to be better. 

I have a friend who I am very close to, who recently resigned and let me tell you she's been my anchor for the longest time, like I can take her anywhere with me and it's okay, and we talk about stuff, silly and serious shit.. and now she's not here anymore and I feel a little lost? Now the other girl who I'm closest to sits at the back and I can't sit with her. You know what happens when introverts sit at the back? We build nations! in other words, no work gets done! And the next person I'm closest to is sitting in a very people oriented, critical area and it's also a big nono for social pariah like myself. So I thought I'd sit somewhere in the middle, which is working so far but ugh PAOLA COME BACK :(((((((((((((( 

THIS SUCKS! well anyway, I'm not going to dwell on it. It can't be helped, I guess. 

It's like, the more you try to fall back and fade out, all the more you get noticed. 

So this post needs some good vibes! I feel terrible about this super long entry just cause I overheard some people talking about me, it wasn't all shit even, I just hate the fact that I'm being talked about. That's real mature, Nicole, why won't you grow up? Ugh. AND THIS POST SOUNDS LIKE I'M TRYING TO JUSTIFY MYSELF FOR BEING MYSELF LIKE IT'S A CRIME BUT IT'S NOT, I JUST WANT TO WRITE ABOUT IT CAUSE I HAVE SO MANY FEELS #NOCAPSNOPASSION. 

HATE FREE ZONE!

On a lighter, cuter note,  I need a phone upgrade!

 But I am still so much in love with mine atm! But I really need a better machine. 

The Xperia ones are really attractive, design and affordability-wise.  

I spray painted one of my cases pink today so now I can use my Kyary cappy! 

And say hi to my ultimate favorite shounen bishie, Yamaken-kun! 

Anyone here who watches Tonari no Kaibutsu-kun? If you haven't then you've to watch!!!
Oh gosh, it's practically one of my favorite anime shows, so far! along with Kamisama Hajimemashita! 

Close up needs a cat! See how my icons are all Maruneko?? Not telling how, hihi! 

I kid! send me an email if you want 'em :)

And my nails for the past week, which didn't last long, which is okay, I guess.. cause they were pretty cheap.

I just really don't have the time to do my nails anymore, and it's utterly depressing, I tell you. And to think I used to do my nails at work, now I can't even! #hatework.

There are times when I have so much stuff going on inside my head and I don't want to bother you or anyone with it, so I'll just sit here and be quiet and lovely while doing my thing. And I swear this only happens on occasions when I feel like I've put myself out in the open for too long, or when I'm starting to miss myself, or when I feel horribly ugly. And this I ask in the sweetest way possible, please don't be mad, and don't forget me and please understand cause when I get back and when I'm tired of dreaming, I promise to be super awesome again and am definitely gonna make it up to you.